lunes, 31 de agosto de 2009

My Ending

Hello,

For those loyal followers of this blog, I've started a new chapter in my life. So this one is closing. Thank you for joining me in my 1st 2 years abroad in business school. May you all have happy and prosperous lives.

Cheers
-MujerDivina

miércoles, 15 de julio de 2009

My Interview in Murcia

One July afternoon, I received a call from the Spanish branch of Hero, a Swiss condiment company. I would have an interview with them in Murcia via Alicante. That morning, I woke up and flew to my first completely Spanish interview. This was a lucid indicator of how far I had come from my stay in Spain. Not only with my Spanish, but with my life.

The interview would last all day, and consist with a few interviews with Marketing Directors, and HR personnel, and hours of IQ and Psychological tests. Everything was in Spanish, and I although I found the personality tests interesting, it took a while to fully understand each of the 80 mini situations written in colloquial Spanish. The timed IQ tests consisted of Spanish word jumbles and spatial puzzles which I found mostly ridiculous and sometimes infuriating.

At the end of the interview, the driver took me on a tour of the city, but I had already made my decision. I would not be taking the job. Although the people were nice, and the company was respectful, it was not what I wanted. I learned that I would spend 1 year in a small Spanish town for an internship before moving to a permanent position in Albany, New York. And to be honest, I didn’t want to put another year of my life on hold. As I said before, I want roots. Neither Murcia nor Albany fit the bill. And I didn’t complete an MBA for the prospect of a fulltime offer after a 1 year internship. I wanted a commitment to a full time offer; I wanted security. I might even want a job back in Securities.

viernes, 1 de mayo de 2009

Graduation

Whenever I think of graduation, that Journey song comes to mind....

"Just a small town girl. Livin' in a lonely world. She took the midnight train going aaaany-wheeere!"

In a way, a lot of us are taking this train (going aaaany-wheere!), in probably the worst economic climate since the Great Depression. And me, graduating with a bilingual MBA from Spain. The next few months will be anyone's guess what will happen.

Graduation was strange. Emotional for some, unemotional for me. I guess it's because the future is so uncertain. I came to the MBA partly to "change the world" but right now it seems like I'm solely living in this world. I don't know if that makes much sense.

Anyways, the night before graduation, I went to probably the last Calatrava BBQ hosted by David P I might ever go to. It was a classic. Sun, beer, food, good IESE company. I spent the night before graduation salsa dancing with Prisque. It was a strange feeling, because I knew Prisque would be leaving to Paris soon.

I woke up April 30 feeling it was a regular day, but at the ceremony, it felt good to get the diploma in hand and hear the wonderful speeches. Alan's speech was hilarious. He made us all laugh (so hard!), which was exactly what we needed.

Some pictures of after the ceremony:



The Ultimate Financiers: Basti & I

We gathered in the atrium of the aula magna for cocktails. Ran into some Professors and chatted a bit. It was nice. After the schmoozing was the graduation dinner. And after that, was the party at club Elephant:


My 2 first year flatmates.




The actor that plays Ted Mosby says something on "How I Met Your Mother" that I truly believe in:

"I think for the most part, if you're really honest about what you want out of life, life gives it to you."


I now know what I really want out of life. So I'm going to go out there and get it. And it's going to be Legen... wait for it... dary.

miércoles, 15 de abril de 2009

Doll Face



A video about the illusions in life that try to change you and what happens when you take great risks to become a different person. A challenge for every trader. You have to be humble. You have to accept that you can't control the market. You can't take things personally. You have to make your decision and get out of it never looking back... it costs too much to worry. Trading is immensely psychological, not many realize.

"Pursue your life with integrity. Find what you're good at: that which so fits your values and interests that it expresses the depths of who you are. Out of that you'll find a career and a calling--whether it's trading or something else.

Everything else is illusion."


-Brett Steenbarger

lunes, 13 de abril de 2009

Spring Fling

Spring Fling is an event IESE hosts every March which brings together neighboring European business schools to compete in sports and listen to presentations from well known business leaders.

My team (IESE Second Years) took 1st place in the salsa competition.

The team:




Although this was a rueda where we switch partners, my intial partner Daniel and me.

The video:

Multi Culti

It's been about a month since Multi Culti 2009, an IESE event where different cultures are put together in a closed Colosseum where they showcase their national food, customs & drink. Since I am too lazy to recall all the details of that delicious March 6 night, I'll post pictures and you can create your own story:

The Mexicans

The Japanese

Go Canada

The Italians

The Spaniards just have a certain something to them, don't they?

Those crazy Dutch (I'm jealous)

The Brazilians and a little Samba

The Portuguese table... oooo Super Bock!


Now some personal pics:
Balaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Best dance of the night had to be with a Colombian.

I forget what this is.

Me and my favorite Uruguayan ... Ricardo!

All the second years of last year... one year after IESE.

martes, 24 de marzo de 2009

TOGOR Project, FISCAL Exam, Life in General

Today were the final presentations for TOGOR (Toma de Decisiones y Gobierno de las Organizaciones). Our presentation covered the executive decisions of UBS regarding a new compensation system to top executives after the Swiss bailout. We did it in English, and although we were allowed to, I was secretly worried that we should have done it in Spanish. The truth was, we could have done our presentation in Spanish, but we decided that the quality would be better in English. It was, but I secretly wondered what it would have been like to get up there and explain banking in Spanish. I knew I could do it...

The FISCAL (Fiscalidad) final came next. It was a written exam explaining what you had learned about the Spanish taxation system. When I walked into the room I felt like vomiting, because the truth was, I hardly understood anything that went on in there. It was too legalese and specific to Spain, which I knew nothing about. But I studied off some Spaniard's notes and reading some text was very helpful, so I was able to turn out a pretty good exam.

After the exam, I felt pleased with myself. Some things in my life are not going so well, which are not my problem, and not my fault, but it affects me. And as I was walking down the hill to the bus, I thought first "Man I would like to visit my friends in Colombia and dance and have some fun right now." And then secondly came my real thought: "Although I have been tired of Spain and continental Europe and speaking Spanish, sometimes it's kind of cool to interact in Spanish. I think I might like living in Madrid."

Why Madrid? Last week I had an interview with the Portuguese renewable energy company EDP Renovaveis, for a Corporate Finance position in Madrid. I started the interview in Spanish, then ended up switching to English to explain the Finance terms. I think they really liked me. I didn't much like the prospect of staying in Spain, but the company and the job seemed really nice, and after a few years, I'd like to relocate back to the States, since they have offices there. Notwithstanding, I hope I get the job.

I'm also looking at jobs in London. Why London? Because they speak English there. :) But it is still close to Europe, and I might not be ready to go home yet. And many good friends of mine will be there. After London in rank, I'd like to be in New York for the same reasons, then if all else fails, I'd pick up all my things where ever I am and move back to New Orleans. I'd probably envision myself working for Tulane, perhaps being a lecturer in Corporate Finance. Then everyday after work I'd have a drink on the porch of the infamous Column's Hotel and watch the passerby on St. Charles.

Nice life. Pero solo falta una cosa......

sábado, 14 de marzo de 2009

Head or Heart?

Sometimes I think I lived my life backwards. I used my head and logic more when I was a kid, and it took me down a path that was, albeit interesting, not one that made me happy. In this MBA I had to figure out how to use my heart for the first time. I admit, not a good place to begin to use one's heart.

Someone asked me today why I was involved with producing the school Yearbook. I said it was because I always wanted to that in high school, but ended up starting & running my own clubs instead. And it was in high school that I decided I wanted to be an Investment Banker. Nothing could stop me from this goal. I approached banks directly and asked for internships until I got one. I thought college was a waste of time. I wanted to be an Investment Banker now. And I knew I could do it. I majored in Finance & Economics and was engrossed in my subjects. I ignored that tiny part inside of me that loved Psychology and Sociology. And the fact that I had extraordinary empathy.

Well I finally became an Investment Banker. And then I realized I hated it. Well, I think it was more the stage of life I had reached by the time I became a banker. I had peaked too early and was already considering people and relationships as more important than power and money. I blame this on being a woman. After my whole life energy was dedicated to becoming a banker, I had to find something else to do. This is a significant blow to the self identity.

So up until now I had used logic to decide my career. Had I learned to listen to my heart as a kid, I would probably be in a completely different place right now, in a career more suitable for my talents. I would have been involved in yearbook and the school newspaper in high school instead of the Math Club. Maybe I'd have gone into journalism. In college I'd have majored in Psychology & Sociology instead of Finance & Economics. Maybe I'd be a Psychologist with a nice 8-6 job where I get to talk to people all day. I think the best part of the job would be seeing the same person over & over again and developing them enough to see results. But one has to be detached enough to not let that person's problems affect you. Even so, that sounds a lot more fun than excel modeling.

But despite the horrific economy, I think I'll find the right job for me soon. It will be something having to do with Client Advisory or Managing People. And it will be in a vibrant city. I just wonder what and where it will be...

lunes, 2 de marzo de 2009

Mi Propio Negocio

When I applied to IESE, I mentioned a business idea that I was passionate about. It seemed good on paper, a logical and simple idea that encompassed most of my interests. But I never really was serious about pursuing it. I admit, I just wanted a ticket to Spain, a new title behind my name, and a new life...

*****
It's kind of funny how it all started. I was at a party my first September in Spain, a housewarming party for my friend Lars, and I was talking to AA. "What do you want to do after the MBA?" he said. I replied, "I have 3 options: Start my own business (the riskiest), get into Finance in the Heathcare industry to become a hospital administrator (middle risky), or become Managing Director of the Sales & Trading side of an investment bank (least risky). [Sidenote: my, how the tables have turned...] And AA said to me, "You don't have to impress me, I'm not an interviewer. Just be prepared to change."

And in that very next September the following year in Barcelona, I met a first year MBA student to whom I asked that same question, "What do you want to do after the MBA?" And he said, "I want to start my own business." And I said, "Oh honey, that'll change. You don't have to impress me..."

*****
And so here I am.

As I went through classes at IESE, still Finance was the subject that interested me most. I reluctantly went through some Entrepreneurial subjects, but mostly they bored me to death and I never had any interest in starting a business or becoming the stereotypical "CEO/Leader." I was more of an analyst and "right hand woman" to the leader. And as several Entrepreneurial Sciences professors asked the question to the class, "Whom of you would like to start a business?" I always proudly kept my hand down.

But times have changed. The financial crisis/global recession is really starting to take effect on us MBAs, and we're having to work harder than before for scraps of jobs. There are simply none out there. The job market is getting smaller and smaller, even for professionals. Forget about Career Services. Forget about alumni networks. Forget about job recruitment sites. Most companies are on a hiring freeze.

And then lessons from Mark Albion's book "More Than Money" came to me again. I should do what I'm passionate about. So essentially I've decided to start a business. This environment is practically forcing me to take a risk I otherwise would never take. I always loved New Orleans and wanted to do something to bring back its economic status pre-Katrina, so I guess now is my chance. Part of me thinks that I am not an Entrepreneur; I'm a people person, a team player, a harmonizer. But then I heard the words from my old Entrepreneurship professor Chris Zott: "Entrepreneurs are not born; they are made."

Many successful businesses I know have started by taking on opportunity like this. But I know I'm not so much in it for the money more so than to bring back New Orleans. Which means that most of the excess profit I make from my share would go to my old University Tulane, IESE and various charities in New Orleans. Guess I'll just give it a try...

sábado, 21 de febrero de 2009

Status Update




You Are Very Happy



Your life is totally together, and you enjoy every day.

And you don't need a quiz to tell you that!

You know how to find pleasure in the little things...

And even when life isn't so great, you have a good sense of perspective.


Neat!

jueves, 19 de febrero de 2009

A Note On Networking

I think with the time constraints many graduating MBAs encounter combined so many possibilities of different jobs, it's easy to forget that when it comes to networking, this rule really does prevail: "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again."

A month or so ago I met someone affiliated with a company I wanted to work for. We became friends through common interests. One day I asked for contact information of someone in the company so that I could get a foot in the door. Days go by, nothing sent. A few weeks later, follow up email. Nothing.

So I decide to visit the company myself and try to get a position. I march right up to the department I would like to apply to and ask if they have any positions open. I speak to a polite Catalan woman who looks me up and down, exudes a somewhat threatened vibe since I have experience with a competitor of theirs, and asks if I have a work permit for Europe.

Ahhh... that's where I always get caught. If only I could get my Italian passport....

She begrudgingly asks to leave my resume so that she could forward it through the system but I know what's really going to happen. I would probably never hear from her again. You see people decide if you are right for the company in the first 20 seconds of meeting you. Then the rest of the time is spent mentally trying to confirm this decision. I thought my dreams of working for this company were slim. But then something happened.

Serendipitously, I run into someone friendly. We exchange business cards. I give him some information he needs altruistically, then decide to ask if he knew any contacts within who can help me. He immediately forwards my request to a very nice lady, of Anglo Saxon decent like me, whom I feel sincerely would "see" my application, not just pass through it for protocol.

So the lesson here is as follows: with the multitude of applications we have these days, added to the pessimism over what is available due to the economy, we might try to quickly pass over opportunities which seem dim, in haste to quickly catch something else. Sometimes if we relax, what we truly want, and what is right for us, might just fall into our laps.

Or who knows, maybe this contact would lead to nowhere... but at least for now I've got something to hope for.

jueves, 12 de febrero de 2009

Cactus Hands

Somehow I find this incredibly funny.

martes, 10 de febrero de 2009

Resumen

Muchas cosas han pasado desde el dia que he escrito antes. Pero no son muy importantes, todo sano. La verdad es que la vida en IESE ha sido muy bien, muy agradable, sin dolencia.

Sigo las clases en Castellano, por ello mi fluidez en Castellano esta mejorando bastante. Ademas, he empezado las clases de Samba de Gafiera (con pareja) y Samba no Pe (sola) para aprender otro baile mas que salsa. La verdad es que me encanta bailar Samba, especialmente con mi pareja en clase.

Tambien he empezado las actividades de construir el Yearbook de IESE para los alumnos de Clase de 2009. Estoy muy orgullosa que soy Redactora (Editor) de todo cuando terminemos.

Ahora este fin de deberia ser muy halagüeño. Estoy pensando en ir a la Palau de la Musica para ver un concerto sinfónico. Esta claro que estoy emocionada a ver lo. Estos son unas de mis cosas favoritas. (Like raindrops on roses & whiskers on kittens.) Pues, no hay nada mas que decir. Esto es solo un resumen...

Concierto de Aranjuez, Barcelona

El Concierto de Aranjuez constituye una de las obras más cèlebres de Joaquín Rodrigo. En ella, el compositor valenciano consiguió plasmar toda la fuerza de su genio logrando que su obra se convirtiera en una de las piezas más difundidas, interpretadas y grabadas de la música clásica de todos los tiempos. El encargado de interpretar la obra será el guitarrista Rolando Saad, que consigue en cada actuación una virtuosa ejecución. El programa se cerrará con las suites I y II de la ópera de Bizet, Carmen.

martes, 20 de enero de 2009

Obama's Inauguration


Today was the inauguration party for President Obama hosted by the Barcelona Democrats Abroad. The event was held at Le Meridien Hotel, and I picked up my tickets early, because the venue was overbooked. A few IESE students and staff were there, and most people just arrived after work and were nicely dressed. IESE was having it's own party at Twins, but I wanted to be more involved in Democrats Abroad events.

Obama's speech was humble, simple, but wonderful. Very classic. And after, the Star Spangled Banner played, and I felt nostalgic, and a proud to call myself an American again. It has been a long 8 years. It's not that I hate Bush, I just wish he would have been more intelligent. But whatever our future, I'd be lying if we said that I wouldn't miss him, even just a little.

Letterman's Top 10 Bush Moments

lunes, 12 de enero de 2009

My First Day of Class in Spanish

Most of my Spanish-speaking friends had their first class entirely in English somewhere around the age of 12 or 13. I had mine at 26. I just really wanted to learn Law. It so happened that the only classes with legal topics were in Spanish, so I passed the DIEN in order to take them.

There's a scene in Legally Blonde that depict's Elle Woods' first day of Law School. She comes in, sits in the front row, pulls out her heart-shaped notepad and feathery pencil while everyone else whips out laptops. Everyone has read the case before class except her, and the teacher stands formidably before her and asks about Gordon vs. Steele. What comes out of her mouth then is absolutely embarrassing, and she gets kicked out of the class for not being prepared.

That's how I felt my first day of Spanish Law class. I felt like I stood out like a sore thumb. The teacher kept coming around to me, standing right in front of me (I was in the front row) and talking directly at me until I froze. I must have looked terrified throughout class because one time, he stopped and asked me something. I had no idea what it was. I thought for sure he knew I was English and was trying to frighten me out the class.

So I started talking about Contract Law.

We weren't even talking about Contract Law. That's when I felt like Elle Woods, with her little heart-shaped notepad.

The whole class started laughing. It turns out he was just asking if I understood him and why I was looking at him with a strange face. At that moment I knew I had 2 choices: I could take the easy way out like I always do to avoid embarrassment and challenges -- drop the class and go for something I don't really like as much but in English. I don't have to take any class in Spanish, or in Law for that matter. Or I could force myself to learn more about Spanish and Law than I ever thought, and suffer. I know my level of Spanish, so I know I'll suffer a lot. If I choose the second, I'm going to have to drop my pride and ask for help from my Spanish friends. And I was probably going to get embarrassed again.

But I also know that if I drop the class, I'd be very disappointed in myself. I came to Spain in part to become fluent in Spanish (it has been a challenge so I have been avoiding it). And, I took the DIEN just so I can take these Law & taxation classes. If I gave up, there is a good chance I'll regret it forever, not knowing how far I could have gone...

domingo, 11 de enero de 2009

Tomorrow

Tomorrow I have my first MBA class... in Spanish: Derecho Mercantil. Directly after that I have another class in Spanish: Introduccion a la Fiscalidad Personal del Directivo y del Empresario. I wonder what this will be like. Hope I can overcome the challenges...

jueves, 8 de enero de 2009

Samba Show Dance

Excellent short clip of ballroom Samba (not the type local Brazilians dance).

Bryan Watson and partner Carmen dancing in a Latin showdance
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And I thought, when looking for my job this year, one important criteria in my selection will be to have time to dance and perform. I love salsa but I always wanted to learn samba. So why not start now? My goal for the next few days is to try to find samba classes in Barcelona. If anyone knows a good studio let me know.

viernes, 2 de enero de 2009

MBA 4Q08 Progress Report and Next Quarter Guidance

So 3 quarters have gone by and I haven't updated this. Truth is, a lot has happened since then. Had my internship in Switzerland with an activist investor, worked on some PE deals, some investment management techniques. Good summer. Albeit boring. Barack Obama won the US elections and I finally found something to believe in. First term of second year in IESE was remarkably easy, and I found myself content with life for the first time in years. Happiness, I'm gaining on you. :)

And now, for the status report.

YE Guidance vs. Actual Results:
- Try to make the most out of the second years. Soon they will graduate, and I know I'll miss them, so I have to be conscious to hang out with them as much as possible before they leave.
Check. Even hung out with more second years than first years in Switzerland over the summer.
- Get a strong salsa program ready for the MBA Olympics & enjoy performing in front of a crowd. I love being in front of an audience, but I have to remember to just have fun.
Check. We won second place.
- Get a job.
Check. Was a great job, probably my favorite so far, learned so much about managing a fund and private equity relationships. But the most important thing I learned, was that it wasn't what I am meant to be doing. :)

>>>OUTPERFORM.

Wow, that was easy. I always believed that when things were right, they'd flow naturally and easily. Life wouldn't be a struggle. And it's not anymore. Wow. I think I am happy.

And in other news, I passed the DIEN!! Also I have signed up for 2 Spanish business classes next term. If I pass these classes, I will be able to graduate with a bilingual degree. And I always wanted to have command of another language. Speaking Spanish has built up significant self-confidence.

1Q09 Guidance
Goals for next quarter:
- Take self defense classes
- Start samba lessons
- Join Toastmasters Barcelona
- If the opportunity arises, must sing a karaoke song in Spanish
- Have a blast at Multi Culti! Appreciate and indulge in everything.
- Narrow down job opportunities and selection criteria.

If you're wondering why the my guidance has become much less substantial, it's because I have come a long way from the first one. Now that I have the operating system set, I can start adding applications ;)

Excellent article from the TraderFeed blog